My need for attention seems unquenchable.
I "need" someone to pay attention to me. Find me attractive, want me, talk to me, etc.
I feel desperate. Just desperate to keep my mind focused on anything but what's really going on inside.
I want to bust out all of the vices to keep from thinking.
Maybe I'll just settle for going out to eat at
Ananda's and then to the library..
I feel so overwhelmed by all the things I want to do, and feel that I can not. Because I'm not used to it, and don't have a snappy plan..
hmph.