Well.. it's been close to a month since my long post about the difficulties between Jason and I.
And I'm happy to say that things have taken a step up! There are twinges of things that I said in the previous post still happening.. but over all, we're doing much better.
I've been super aggravated and antsy lately.. I think I know the reason for it, though.
I'm feeling slightly better about myself.. Which is good, because for a while there I just wanted to disappear.
Jason and I have a photo enlarger and dark room chemicals to print our own photos. And I'm kinda proud to say that last night, I followed one of my photographs from the beginning to the end! I took the picture myself.. I developed the film myself.. then printed the photo myself! That's really awesome. It's pretty exciting.
I don't know if I said it earlier, but him and I have gotten into photography for something that we can share/have in common.
We still have a little difficulty meshing our personal ways of dealing with things. I get emotional and hard on myself, and he's gung-ho 'let's take care of this _now_' His method is fantastic for him, and I'd like to emulate it a bit. But only a bit! I have to find a reasonable way to manage stress and highly-emotive situations without totally freaking out, and still being true to myself.
That's something complicated! How to stay true to myself.. I feel like while I don't like to change things, I'm a highly adaptive person. Meh. Such struggles in life.
What're you going to do about it? ~+.+~ Life's a rollar coaster.. and I know when I look back, I'll be happy that I've been in bad times and in good times.

luvs  ¶ 12:08 PM