I'm glad I wrote something like 'life's a roller coaster, I'll be glad I've been through it all' or whatever I wrote last time.. because I'm feeling like crap today. >_<

I went to the library yesterday (it was the second time I've ever been to the one down here) and got a few books. One of them being: Arousal. The Secret Logic of Sexual Fantasies. That's a link to the book.. I started reading it last night, but couldn't really concentrate. So, I was reading it today. I'm finding out stuff about myself, which is really great. I haven't thought about what makes me tick in quite a while.

Only.. that's not so great. It brought to light that I've been unhappy with things lately, and I don't really want to face that.. =o(

Ahh.. change.. "The only thing constant in life is change." "If you can expect anything, you can expect change." Blah! BLAH, I TELL YOU!!
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In other news.. I got to hear a voice I hadn't heard in a while. While in the library, I remembered I got the privilege of borrowing books from R----- in high school. I wanted to read one of those books again, so I called him up and left a message. I turned my phone on silent in the library and missed his call back.. =o( But he said I could call anytime tomorrow (today!). I probably won't take him up on that offer because I'm feeling pretty shitey, but the book is Vurt by Jeff Noon. The link is a review of the book. I didn't read it entirely.. but skimmed it. It sounded like an alright review. There is an official Vurt website, so.. that link there will take you to it. <3
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This morning I was dreaming a kinda weird dream.. Badru was trying to go to sleep in his room, and there were two other people in there besides him.. and I kept him awake, talking. When I finally went to leave him alone so he could sleep.. it was being to be light out, and it was understood that he wouldn't be sleeping with the light. So, we decided he should turn into a squid, and I would swallow him, and he could sleep in my stomach, in the dark, until he was rested. So, I swallowed him. And then there was some panic about whether that was a good idea or not.. Because what if my stomach acids were eating him? I tried to comfort myself with the false confidence of they wouldn't, why would I have the idea in the first place if it wasn't safe? Gladly, I woke up before I began inducing vomiting.. My dreams have been rather lucid lately, and I really wouldn't want to wake up gagging myself and barfing on Jason.

It was good to see Badru, though.. I miss him.  ¶ 3:41 PM