I wonder if my new found (or is it?) stress and unhappiness in life is because of my hormones, the change of the seasons, the holidays looming in the near future, or if I'm just nuts.

I have new birth control. I start it tomorrow. But.. I might get a different one a month from now. ATM, I have Norplant inplanted in my arm. I am going to start taking a low does combo birth control pill for the next month, I"m getting the Norplant taken out in the first week of December, and the following week, I'm going to have an appointment to see how I'm doing without the Norplant, and just on the pill. And also to discuss getting an IUD (intrauterine device [sp]). I've heard good things about it, and my Nurse Practitioner thinks I should get one. Lots of appointments to keep and remember, not to mention that she wants me to take Vitamin B6 and calcuim everyday with the pill. Esh.

It's freezing..
I wonder why I get emotional with this weather? It's really weird, I step outside, and I want to cry. I think it just reminds me of the holidays.

I don't want them to come. I don't want Christmas or Thanksgiving this year..

Oh well..

bye bye  ¶ 10:57 PM